I was upset when the Sonogram Technician told me I was having a girl… Not because I didn’t want a girl…I had waited 2.5 years after miscarriage for another baby…but because I was so scared to lose her. Dozens of friends had dreams of my husband and I having a baby boy. Many people had prophesied that we would have a boy. So when I found out our rainbow baby was a girl…I panicked. I was immensely afraid to lose another baby. I was gripped with the fear of my hope being deferred yet again. But a f